Spontaneous Hiatus

Sorry to anyone reading this absolute moan of a post, I just need to let my feelings out!

This post isn’t really book related but it’s me announcing a spontaneous hiatus for at least this week and depending on how next week goes, maybe another week, too. Work is really affecting me and I have no capacity to think of anything else right now. I’m so fucking exhausted and feeling incredibly hopeless and I hate it. I know it’s just this phase of work I’m in right now, but I feel so unsupported by the people I need the most support from even after continuously voicing my concerns.

A meme of a shocked possum at the bottom of the image, with the following text above it:
Me: no problemo
Narrator: But it was all problemo
That’s me. I am this possum.

Not to sound dramatic but today was a day that had me trying to hold back tears as I discussed with colleagues this annual report that I barely understand what I’m doing with anymore—completely smashing what little I understood of it to begin with.

I barely held back the tears on the long and seemingly endless journey home this evening while simultaneously trying to avoid having a full-blown panic-fueled anxiety attack.

And it finally ended with me being unable to hold back my tears when I got home and made it into the shower, all throughout dinner, and as I continued to figure out what the hell I need to do to get this thing done by the deadline next week.

I am so so so incredibly exhausted. I just want to keep crying. And I hate that it’s making every moment miserable and affecting my reading because my brain just can’t compute.

26 thoughts on “Spontaneous Hiatus

  1. Oh Dini, I’m so sorry to hear you’re have such a rough time at work. Take all the time you need, take care of yourself and I sincerely hope things at work and this report will get better for you very soon!

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  2. Oh Dini. I’m so sorry. Sending you all the love and support. Take all the time you need. You’re right, it will pass, but just take it day by day. Be kind to yourself. And vent all you need to! ❤️❤️

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  3. I hate *liking* this. DO what you need to do. I’m so so very sorry that work has been so difficult. Remember, blogging is our hobby and it’s totally okay to take time off. I really hope things get better becuase I’m so sad you are feeling this way. If you need to vent or anything, you know where I’m at, anytime!! Much love & hugs being sent your way! 💜💜

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  4. I hope things improve soon- and that you get a well deserved break soon as well. Remember to take care of yourself too ❤ Take as much time as you need, and vent as much as you'd like to ❤

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  5. I hate that you’re going through this. I’ve been in similar situations and felt your frustration and helplessness. And cried many tears. I probably would have burst out in tears right in front of my coworkers – it has happened to me more than once- so I admire your ability to hold it in until you got home. Can you get a copy of ones from years past that you can use for ideas? I’m sure you will come up with some kind of game plan. I’ll be thinking about you and sending you loads of positive vibes.

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  6. I’m sorry you are going through a lot when it comes to work at the moment. It’s awful that you can’t get the support you need. We will still be here when you come back. ❤️❤️

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  7. Ugh, I’m so, so sorry, Dini. I have definitely taken many a hiatus when work became too much (tears and all, I connected so much with this). I am so sorry you’re dealing with it, too, and hope you’re able to take care of yourself!

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  8. I’m so sad that you are having such a rough time at work. Please take care of yourself! Blogging will still be here when you feel up to it. I look forward to your return and wish you nothing but the best. I’ll be sending lots of positive vibes your way!

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  9. Dini, your health and happiness are more important than the blog. Know that we all care about you and are here to support you to the best of our abilities! Take care of yourself, and know what we are here when you’re ready!

    Pam @ Read! Bake! Create!

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  10. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this Dini. It really makes a huge difference being happy with your work, I know the feels and I feel for you. I wish there was something I could do to help you. I’m glad that you let out your frustration, and I really, truly hope that your work will finally listen to you and help you and support you. It’s difficult to stay in that kind of environment for long, and we want you to be happy and supported on all facets of life. I miss you so much, and I’m glad to see that you’ve been still blogging pretty consistently. Take this break for as long as you need. You know we are all going to be here ready to welcome you back with open arms when you’re ready. ❤

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